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Originally posted by Xiaoyung (view)
I've had dreams about Bell-chan before. And in all honesty, that was the first time I've felt happy in a long time. I was in this depression for a while where all the stresses of school and home and everything began to add up. And at one point I literally was ready to just sleep away if I could have had the dream with Belldandy again. It was a rather creepy point. But beyond that first dream I haven't had a dream about Bell for a long time now. It's really kind of sad. ^.^;;

same here...

back at that day, i was stressed out. and when the time i slept, i dreamed of a casket with my dad's picture on it...

...which is not actually a nice one...it made me cry, and almost freak out...

after i fell down on my knees, bell came in front of me and tried to comfort me. I still remember what she said. "Dont worry, it's just a dream. Let me take care of you as you sleep so that this nightmare would not happen again."

I consciously dream, that's why I love sleep, I formulate my fantasies and live them out in my mind. That's why I have so few nightmares, although sometimes a purposely create a drab, wretched world, just so I can be the hero and get the girl/goddess ;)
It scares me though, it feels like sometimes the fantasy world begins to play out in my mind as I'm awake. If I'm walking down the street or just staring at a wall, before I know it, I'm dreaming. It sucks me in, and sometimes my mind won't animate what I'm thinking and all of my creations come out warped and disfigured. It's really creepy.
I guess thats the danger of trying to use your own subconscious to shield you from the depression around you.

Yeah, gotta strike a balance between the two, right?

It's daydreaming that gets me nowadays. So I can vividly daydream and create all sorts of fantasy worlds and watch what havoc happens when I decide to, say, say something's up with Belldandy today. Like, say, she's being pursued by . And what happens next? Well, that's for me to decide.

This kind of skill makes me a good storyteller. It's the fact that I have cold feet every time I try to write something that I have nothing to show for it.