I don't think I'm being hard on myself. I love my family. The family I hate though is Mike's. Which is a totally different family all together that gave my family hell. I'm happy with my family and Mike and his family are out of our lives. I love my Dad, I just only wish he didn't plan on raising me to smoke and drink and sleep with as many woman as possible. Fortunately, my Mum protected me and brought me to Britain and be raised to be decent.
Well I don't know what it's like to fall in love. I suppose it would be nice to have someone special with you. If I EVER were to be in a relationship, it would be an innocent one without lust and lasts forever. Unfortunately, one like that doesn't exist..... So I don't look for anyone.
The only kind of relationship I would have with a girl is a friendship and nothing more. I just only wish people would just stop pairing us up whenever I talk to one.... EVERYONE makes a huge deal out of it. They see me with a girl and they think I'm dating. The thing that annoyed me was that the girl was my sister.......:bash:
Nearly everyone in that school had a one tracked mind and can only think of what's underneath everyone's clothes. It made me sick.....
I guess you could say I don't like to take chances considering everything that happens in relationship. All the prices you have to pay, all the sacrifices you have to make. All the pain you could suffer. I seen my Mum suffer long enough, I don't want that to happen to me too.....
I'm not cold anyway. I know how people should be treated and I'm nice to girls and respect them, I just don't want to date.
12-Feb-2005