I thought about it clearly. You see, my family has bad luck when dating. They always get the worst people. Mike, my Mum's ex-boyfriend was a really nice guy at first and when he got comfortable, he had shown his real self. A real jerk. I don't want to feel the pain of a broken heart. I don't want to take chances on people. I see on TV everywhere when people are cheated on, treated like dirt, used and abused...... A lot of relationships usually are physical too. Nothing more. There are also cases where people's partners cut them off from family.
I'm sure there are lots of good people out there who treat people right, I just don't want to take my chances. I can get by in the world on my own. I want to travel the world with family. I won't be alone.
I'm just not looking forward to seeing my Dad in America. He fixed my Brother up with someone that's nearly 50 years old. My Brother is 24 years old. He is the worst matchmaker who ever existed. To make things worse, they got married because she FORCED him into marrage.
My dad might try to fix me up with someone too. NO WAY would I let him force me into a relationship, I will fight with every once of strength.
I'm only the type of person who isn't interested in being in relationships, that's all. I wondor why that's so hard for people to understand.
I'm not a bad person, I just protect myself from the pain that relationships would bring. Back when I was little I didn't feel that way. I sort of thought relationship were sort of like Belldandy and Keiichi's. (Except without any perverted or lustful thoughts like Keiichi gets sometimes.) Where they live together and care about what happens to each other. If relationships were like that, then I would not feel the way I do.....
12-Feb-2005